Throughout this whole journey with Evie I have felt a theme running through each and every step of the way – delayed gratification. Delayed gratification is defined by wikipedia as: the ability to resist the temptation for an immediate reward and wait for a later reward. Generally, delayed gratification is associated with resisting a smaller but more immediate reward in order to receive a larger or more enduring reward later. Basically it’s what puts the challenge into losing weight, saving money, etc. because we must deny ourselves immediate pleasures in order to wait for a future benefit.
Another way of describing that term is patience. Patience to endure the present in order to reap the rewards promised in the future. God has made so many promises in Scripture to those who endure trials. He promises good things to those who wait:
There are countless verses in the Bible that speak of how great the rewards of Heaven will be compared to the difficulties we face on this earth:
The verses above have meant a lot to me in recent months. At first I was slightly annoyed that Paul referred to the struggles of this life as “light afflictions”. Light? What about knowingly carrying a baby with fatal birth defects for four months and then watching her die seems light?
But the realization came that considering the grand scheme of Heaven and eternity, it is light. Some days the idea of living without Evie is insurmountable. I probably have, give or take, fifty more years on this earth. That seems like a really long time to live without someone I love.
But how long is fifty years compared to eternity? It is light indeed.
So delayed gratification. I realize that I must be denied something wonderful in this life so I can reap great benefits and rewards in Heaven. And spending every day of eternity with my sweet girl will be unbelievably more wonderful than any day we could have had together here.