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From Duty to Delight

The past four-ish years of my life have been marked by painful suffering and seeing that suffering on a grand scale – me as a committed Christ follower, fellow-sufferer, and devoted Christian soldier. I’ve had to put my head down, put on my peripheral blinders, and fix my eyes dead ahead on the hope of Heaven and the healing it will bring. I’ve felt a strong sense of obligation to continue to suffer well, to reflect my heart well, and to point others to the Lord in the process. My life has felt burdened for this duty. Burdened in a good way, but burdened with duty nonetheless.

Quite frankly, my soul is tired of living in that way.

I think it is no coincidence that lately I’ve been reading books like Every Bitter Thing is Sweet, Looking for Lovely, and Simply Tuesday – books that have caused me to slow down and truly look for God in the small moments of my life. These small moments seem less significant than say, the shock of carrying to term a baby with a fatal diagnosis, but they are still of great importance and God is beginning to work in me in these seemingly small, everyday ways. He’s starting to create a shift in my heart.

I’m beginning to be hungry to see that God not only desires my obedience as His devoted soldier ready to carry out His mission against the enemy, but that He delights in me as His child and desires to give me good things and desires for me to see His beauty in the commonplace of the day to day.

I’m trying to move from a sense of duty to a sense that God delights in me.

From duty to delight.

My heart is longing to know what it looks like for God to truly delight in me as His child and not only because I am performing well as a commissioned soldier.

My heart is longing to know that worship can be refreshing for me and I don’t always have to pour out and that right now might rather be a season of me being filled.

From duty to delight.

My soul is weary from battling. I want to know the God who sees me and smiles, who sings praises over me, who created frothy ocean waves and soft white sand just for me to enjoy. I want to know that good, beautiful, soft, creative, caring God. I want to move onto something different.

From a sense of obligation to feeling free.

From the sweaty front lines to a place of rest.

From duty to delight.

The Lord God is in your midst, the Mighty One will save; He will rejoice over you with gladness, He will quiet you with His love, He will rejoice over you with singing.

Zephaniah 3:17

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